Embrace your uniqueness.
This is the (sort of) end of day 14 of my 30 anomalous day challenge. (Sort of, because I had something happen which made me decide to go to sleep before I tell about it, so it's a little after that)
On this day I chose to admit – to myself mostly, and also consequently to the world – that I am different.
In what way? My way.
As simple as that.
I still harbor a fear of rejection, based on the experiences of the previous owner of this body (a story for another day), and so I tried to hide it.
However, the act of hiding came not from renting myself out to the situation and consciously playing the game, but rather from – as I said – fear of rejection.
I tried with all my might, to present myself as a normal member of society, a normal family member, father, friend, professional man in my business…
but to no avail. My view, my opinions, my way of regarding every little nuance of this world – did not coincide with the "normal" view as I saw it (regardless of the fact that I know there is no "real" "normal" – just an illusion of normativity).
And so, I found myself caged by my own fear. The fear of being me, and of not being accepted for who I am.
Ironically enough, the very day I announced that (the big "I am myself" announcement), I was ridiculed for being different, which led to an induced transition with much unpleasant feelings, and then to the clarity of how strong and present (in my present) was this internal cage of mine.
I know for a fact that I am not a victim of anyone or anything. Everything that has and is happening to me is a result of what I have vibrated and radiated to the world in the past – it IS my responsibility: to deal with and to feel, as well as to maintain or to change as I choose to.
This turn of events led and will continue to lead to a few changes in the way I live my life in the day by day terms.
I do not yet know how things will turn out, but I am sure I will be more present as they do.
Bear in mind that being my own self and allowing myself to fully be as I am, does not mean showing off and flaunting my characteristics or features.
It just means that I have a choice not out of fear – to be who and how I want.
I also know that this "self-revelation", for lack of a better term, is not a moment thing, but rather a process. There is more than one cover to shed off of me / myself.
This situation affects all the aspects of my life – therefore I am allowing myself to put this post both in my personal page and in my business page.
I believe that as a business owner and a consultant for other business owners and executives, I will give more value from the perspective of my authentic being, and that my clients in turn will gain much more clarity from me in this way.
In the personal areas of my life, there will probably be people who won't like me without the masks they have come to know me through, and they may take a step back from me. On the other hand, I also know that I will attract like minded and/or like hearted people, with whom we will resonate for the joy and benefit of all involved.
Each of humanity's members is entitled to be whomever they choose, and if you choose to be, without masks of fear – you have my vote and support! (This also means – reach out if you want to talk about it)